An Emotional Train Wreck (a Narnia fan-fic by Lava)

~Lava~

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A long time ago I wrote a basic storyline for this and posted it in the "What could have happened to Susan?" thread. Over the past three days, I have written this short story. I hope you all enjoy it.

Looking through the streets of a shocked London, one would hardly have guessed that the war was over. There was a general feeling of gloom and sadness, most notably near the police station where people, clad in mourning black, were filtering through to claim and collect the personal effects of their loved ones. It was two days out from a very tragic train accident that took the lives of almost everyone in the station.

It was almost a shame for one not to notice the two older couples and a young woman (manifestly not either’s daughter) who headed into the police station quite close to one another. They all knew each other; they all had family who died in the crash. Probably the reason they seemed so out of place was that the young woman would have been stunning had she not been dressed in black and looking as though she was about to burst into another bout of tears. Such was the general feeling of the day, so it was rather to be expected.

The two couples approached the desk first: one giving the last name of Pole, the other went by Scrubb. They had lost their only children, one was a daughter named Jill and the other a son named Eustace. Then came the young woman. She said that she was Susan Pevensie and that she was there to collect the belongings of Mr. and Mrs. Pevensie and those of her two brothers and one sister.

The desk workers told them all to wait and that an officer would bring them out their loved-ones belongings as soon as they could retrieve them. Then, losing the battle with curiosity, one asked: “Miss Pevensie, I beg your pardon but if I may be indelicate, did you lose your whole family in this crash.” Susan, unable to answer, burst into tears; Mr. Scrubb told the man to mind his own business. It was good thing that several police officers, bearing bags with the belongings, came into the lobby at that time; it broke the tense silence that had built up during the moments after the question had been asked. All that was needed was a few signatures, and then the little group left. Susan was helped by the man who called himself Mr. Scrubb. The Scrubbs and Susan all put their parcels into the same car.


Later that week, Susan sat in her house; one that not long ago she had shared with four other people and occasionally her brother, Peter, who was away at the University much of the time because he wanted to become a doctor. She had had to remove his possessions from the apartment where he had been staying not long after going to pick up the stuff from the police station. She had no idea what to do with it all. Currently, it all sat in jumbled piles all over her parlor floor and all she had done for the past hour was stare at it; well, that and move it from place to place going through the motions of starting to sort it out but not actually opening anything or looking through it.

The phone rang and out of habit Susan went to go pick up the receiver. The voice on the other line was familiar and yet distant: “Susan, we are all going out tonight. We miss your company, do you wish to come?”

“I cannot, first of all, just less than a week ago, my whole family died and I am not emotionally up to going out. Besides, because they all are gone, I have to sort through their stuff and put it where it belongs. I have to get off the phone now. Good-bye.”

The phone call gave her renewed vigor and left her questioning what types of friends she had chosen for herself. Soon, however, that was all forgotten because she finally opened the first bag. It was one from the police station and it just so happened to contain Lucy’s things. There wasn’t much because she was just going along for the ride. It contained her little handbag and all her journals because she had been trying to bind them together to form one book; from the looks of things, she was successful. It was cleverly done and in her handbag she had a leather cover that was going to be the cover for it. Really, it seemed as though Lucy had expected that she was not going to need another journal. A quick flip through the pages showed that the journals covered from shortly after they had gone to the Professor’s house all the way until yesterday. There was also Lucy’s pencil, a much worn handkerchief that still smelled deliciously like summer afternoons, and a little locket containing a picture of their family on one side and a drawn picture of a lion on the other.

Next she tackled the bag with her parents’ belongings. Not much of interest was in their things; it was her father’s wallet, her mother purse, and various other things her parents were known to carry on regular basis. It seemed that the luggage car had been smashed (or maybe burned) because none of their luggage had been returned.

Susan did not know why the boys had been at the station but she next went through Edmund’s stuff. She did not find much in Ed’s things; he, also, had a drawn picture of a lion in his wallet. She also found pencil and drawing paper leaving her to conclude that Ed must have been the originator of the drawn lions. His wallet had a funny smell to it and it was very old, four or five years by the looks. Try as she might, she could not place the smell but couldn’t understand why Ed would carry something that smelled so odd, almost like old food. Other than that, Ed had a pocket watch and a pressed leaf with a familiar look to it but one that she could not place with a tree near her house.
She had saved Peter’s possessions for last because she figured she do it all together, even the stuff from his apartment. First there was the bag; it took her awhile to open it because the police had taken more care that it should not accidentally open and she had not put down Lucy’s journal. When it finally was open, she saw why the police had made sure it stayed closed, it had a lot of little rings in it that kind of glowed and it seemed that they were humming. She thought she remembered hearing about rings like them before but decided that it must have been in a catalogue. At any rate, she shifted the book she was carrying and picked up the bag to get a closer look. Finding it hard to see them in their bag, she reached into it with her free hand grabbed for a yellow one…

She was a little discombobulated when she became aware of her surroundings again (it was only because a guinea pig had come up to her and was investigating her hair by chewing on it). She was sitting near a pool of water with a book tucked into her arm and a bag of stuff in the hand of that same arm there was a yellow ring in her other hand. The only other thing she noticed was about the place; she saw that it was overrun by guinea pigs but otherwise very calm and peaceful. Slowly it came back to her that this was not the place she should have expected to be after waking up from a nap, but, realizing that she had nowhere else to be, she looked around for a place to sit that would be more comfortable.

There was a tree close by and many other ponds. Before leaving for the tree, she thought it would be best to mark the pond she came out of. She went to do so but found that it was already done. More thinking aloud than talking to herself, she said, “Well, I ought to have known that. It was in that story about the rings; I wish I could remember why I know it.” She slowly walked to the tree.

Not wanting to go back to her parlor at home nor wanting to go back to sleep, Susan started reading Lucy’s journal. It all started with a brief recounting of the Professor giving it to Lucy and telling her to put down her thoughts and feelings. Lucy faithfully did, writing at least once a week from that time forward; it was very like Lucy to do so. Susan read and read: she read about their first encounter with Narnia; about Lucy when she was wondering when they would get back to Narnia; about the Great Lion, Aslan. Later, she read about their second Narnian adventure; reading Lucy’s diary made Susan feel as if Narnia was actually really real. More real than it had felt to her in a long time; she almost remembered dancing with the Maenads. She soon came to the part about when Lucy was talking about their exit back out of Narnia and how Aslan had told Peter and Susan that they were not coming back. Lucy speculated that it must have been hard for Peter and her to hear that they would never see Aslan again. Coming out of that part, Susan felt a little guilty; it had not been as hard for her as Lucy had thought it would be and she was a little troubled by Lucy’s thoughts on the behavior during the night Aslan brought them to the How.

She then moved into the part during Lucy’s first year of boarding school. It was again filled with hope and wondering when Lucy would get to see Aslan again. Near the end of the year, Lucy expressed her struggle against jealousy about Susan getting to go to America when she had to go live with their aunt, uncle, and cousin. She read about Lucy and Ed’s third and final trip to Narnia. It wasn’t until she had read the part of Lucy talking about some magic book that Lucy called Coriakin’s Book that Susan realized how miserable it must have been for Lucy to be compared to herself all the time. Lucy talked of all of their struggles and of meeting Ramandu, a star. Finally, she talked of going home again and Aslan telling her and Ed that they were not coming back to Narnia. Lucy had found great comfort in Aslan telling her that He was in England too.

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Before Susan could turn the page, she felt a needling at her leg. Looking down, she saw an orange cat sitting next to her and playing with the lace on her skirt. She did not know where he had come from but he was such a great comfortable cat that she welcomed his presence and started petting him while she read.

She did not much like what Lucy thought of her after she came back from America. Lucy had used the word frivolous. While she acknowledged that there was some truth to it, she dismissed it as another time when Lucy’s jealousy was surfacing. As she read on, she found that Lucy really strived hard to find out how Aslan was present in everyday life. Eventually, Lucy talks less of Aslan, not altogether dropping His name but it was used interchangeably with the name Jesus. She talked about Jill and Eustace’s trip to Narnia and how they all found it hard to get Susan to talk about Narnia with them. Though they had heard the story long before that, Lucy told of Professor Digory and Polly’s trip to Narnia. Finally, Susan found out why the boys had been at the station as Lucy told about how they had met about a week before the train wreck and about the ghostly vision of a Narnian. The day before the train wreck, Lucy told of how Peter and Edmund had gone to the old house in London and had retrieved the rings. There was a date on the next page as if Lucy had been about to write something when the crash happened. But nothing was there. It was a sad end.

Carefully closing the book, Susan picked up the cat and hugged it then she dumped the contents of the bag out. She was very careful not touch the rings because she now knew all about them. Peter’s wallet was one of the other things in the bag and it had the same drawing of Aslan that the others had had. Peter also had a pocket watch but his was different from Ed’s in that he had a lion engraved on the back that was enameled in cherry red engraved under it, “Once a King, always a King”. Along the side, it said “Peter, remember that the Lion is the King of all Kings. From, Lucy.” It was subtle enough that any who were not versed in Narnian history would not have taken it as odd; yet, it held a hidden meaning that would have been very important to Peter and the rest of them.

Putting everything except the rings back into the bag, Susan got up and started to depart. However, she stopped and stooped and picked up two rings with the aid of her sleeve so that she would not touch them unless she wanted to. She put the green one in one pocket and the yellow one in the other. She went back to the pond that brought her home and slipped her hand into the pocket with the green ring in it.

When she was sitting back in her parlor, she still felt becalmed and it was almost fun to go through her brother’s things. He, like Lucy, had been keeping a journal for a long time. Susan put this aside, with Lucy’s journal, to read at a later date. Peter had a lot of queer things written down in his notebooks, right alongside his notes from school. All of it had to do with Narnia and he even had a well drawn map of Narnia in there. With everything she went through, it became clear that none of her siblings, not even her oldest brother, had ever treated Narnia as a game after they discovered that Lucy wasn’t a liar.

After two weeks of cleaning house and putting her parent’s things into order, Susan was able to slip away for some time alone, away from the lawyers and the comforters and her friends who decided to plague her life at her house when she continuously refused to go out with them to parties. In her cleaning, she had gone through Lucy’s and Ed’s bedrooms. Ed, also, had been writing a journal but his first one was rather different from those of the others, it was made of vellum and was edged in gold. Its passages were in the language of the High Court and the dates were marked off in Narnian months. There was a distinct and out of place difference between the back of it and the front. All of Ed’s various journals were filled with sketches as well as words.

In order to assure complete ability to read in peace, she grabbed Ed’s journals and his sketchbook and went into her room to get the rings. On coming to the Wood Between the Worlds, she headed over to the tree which she had used before. Much to her joy, within minutes of her sitting down, her tawny little friend was curled up in her lap (at least most of the way in her lap, he was a large cat). Ed had started his first journal (or at least the first one that she had, she seemed to remember that Ed had kept a journal throughout much of his Kingship) a couple of days before they planted the apple orchard at Cair Paravel. It chronicled the trip to Calormen, their escape, and eventually the hunt for the White Stag. Here, the writing significantly changed. Instead of using Narnian months, he started using earth time and instead of vibrant ink, it was done with pencil. He still occasionally slipped into courtly tongue but as she read through that happened less often, though he still signed his name, King Edmund. Moving into the next journal, she read all about the second adventure from Ed’s point of view and after that, his struggle to deal with his school fellows as a knight ought to.

Susan saw something of how much Edmund had changed from what he had been during the first years of boarding school to what he was as king and how little he had changed from what he was as a king to what he was as a school boy again. In his account of the third adventure, it was very clear that he knew quite well who he was and especially what the significance of the knife on Aslan’s Table was to him. He did not have as much to say about her actions as Lucy did but Ed had talked with some concern about his sister, Susan, who seemed too quick to forget the past and not learn from it. He went so far as to call some of the people who were her friends Rabadashes.

He had not written as much in his journal as Lucy had in recent years, but she found that he seemed to know almost immediately what Aslan had meant when he told them that he would lead them to His country through theirs. However, Ed’s pictures were a completely different story. He had a great many sketches of just about anything you could think of from the Dawn Treader to the Splendor Hyaline, from the beavers to Aslan, also he drew Eustace as a dragon. There were quite a few pictures that Susan could not recognize from any story in Narnia that she could remember but then too she had not really paid as much attention to the ones that came after she could no longer go. And the last picture was that of the other seven sitting or standing at a table but the whole room was shown and there was a shady vision of a man tied to a tree in the room. The caption below it said: “Speak, if you’re not a phantom or a dream. You have a Narnian look about you and we are the seven friends of Narnia.”

Gently moving the cat off of her lap, Susan collected everything that she had brought with her and made ready to go. She almost wished that she had been among the others when the shadowy figure showed up, but knew that she had chosen instead to go to a party with her friends. She also wondered if Ed was serious about her friends reminding him of Rabadash.

She came back a month later with Peter’s journal. He had not been as prolific a writer as his other two siblings. But that could be chalked up to the fact that he had been at the University much longer than everyone else and doing hard studies to ready him for it long before he went there. Peter had the same basic stories as the other two did, but he had much less understanding of the time that Lucy and Ed spent on the Dawn Treader. The remarkable thing about Peter’s journal was how much he was worried about her. He worried that her dismissal of Narnia as a game was the loss of her belief in everything that was genuinely important. He, at times, expressed a wish to not allow her friends into the house and felt guilty for not helping her to stay true to her queenship. He felt like he could have prevented what he felt was a downhill slide for Susan. He talked about praying for her return to faith and about trying to get her to spend more time with friends that would build up her faith rather than tear it down. He also had gone so far as to try to introduce her to such friends, but noted that she would not come to meet them. It hurt her to think that she had caused her brother so much trouble.

Reading the journals of her siblings, in fact, showed her how much her siblings were disappointed in her. She had been a beautiful queen, a wonderful sister, but reading their journals showed her that she was not that in their estimation any more. The worst part about it was that they had all, in some way, blamed themselves for not trying hard enough to get her to mend. While she gave them no blame, she almost could admit to herself that they were right about her. She was not the queen that she once was and she had not been particularly nice to her siblings either.

She left the Wood Between the Worlds with a lot on her mind. All the other times, she had been at peace but this time her thoughts troubled her. She knew that all her siblings had gone to their graves, to Aslan’s Country, disappointed in her and wished that she could take back some of things she did that had caused that. She knew that she was going to try to do better in the future.

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It was hard for her over the next few weeks between when she left the Wood and when she went back, but they had been generally more productive weeks than the ones right before the train crash. She had finally found a job that she could support herself in and pay the bills on her parents’ house. She did not have much time for her old friends because of it and some had abandoned her. One of her co-workers had known her brother, Edmund, very well throughout his school years and he had been significantly changed by Ed’s behavior. Susan found this boy much more fun to be around than her old friends and when she was looking for entertainment she chose to seek it with him.

When she went back, she brought a book with her that this friend had told her about, one that Ed had given him. She thought it was a great book, one that she had known well. It was the story of King Arthur and his kingdom that was based on Christian values and chivalry. She continued to go back to the Wood almost every week (and on the weeks she missed, it felt like nothing was going right). She read the Bible with the cat in her lap. Every time she went, she brought a book (even if it was just rereading one of her siblings’ journals) and every time she went the cat was there to greet her. She even brought Ed’s friend once. It was a regular, weekly appointment in her life for five years.

As a result of cleaning up her life and becoming responsible, her old friends just stopped calling. She had other stuff to do rather than go out with them. She also stopped thinking of Narnia as a “funny game that they had all played as kids;” it was real to her again and it was her ardent hope to one day make it to Aslan’s Country. She and Andrew, Ed’s friend, remained good friends even after his marriage. Their kids treated Susan like an aunt. In fact, she had Andrew and his family move into her house so that they did not have to stay in a small apartment.

One day, she went to keep her appointment with the tawny cat in the Wood Between the Worlds but instead of finding a small cat she found Aslan standing there. He told her: “Long have I waited for the day when I was able to do this. Susan, it is your turn to come to my home with me.”

Please Critique.
 
Apart from the fact that the title "MIZZZZZZZZZ" did not begin to be used until about thirty years after the time of your story, this is really good!
 
Yes, that's better. In the same section, I like Eustace's father being nice to Susan. It suggests to me that (as in the recent "Dear Mum" story) the Christianized Eustace had managed to have some effect on his parents.
 
oh, i love it so much, Lava. I find anything having to do with the rings and the Wood Between the Worlds to be very interesting. This is very enjoyable to read. you have an amazing writing style :D
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I liked it overall. It really took a different look at a much worn topic and made it fresh.

That said, the first few paragraphs introducing all those people who were related to all those people occasionally left me scratching my head. That's a mass of material. Had I not been a Narniac I might have had real trouble figuring out what was going on.

When you hit your stride is after the personal effects are collected. From that point on it really sings.

Congratulations!

John
 
I wrote an alternate beginning:

Susan was shocked when the police man walked up to the door. She knew that Edmund had been accepted into the police academy, but surely they knew that Edmund was elsewhere. The police man at the door did not seem to be looking for Edmund, he was so serious. “Sir, are you here for my brother Edmund? My parents are out today and I have no idea where my siblings are. I certainly did not call you. Edmund went out with my brother Peter earlier today, both saying that they had an errand to run.”

“Miss Pevensie, I am sorry to bother you, but I have some serious and bad news for you. It seems that your parents and three of your siblings have died in a terrible train wreck earlier today. Surely, you have heard of it, the news is everywhere… Miss Pevensie, are you alright?”

“Yes… I guess so. Are you sure that it was my parents and my siblings? Surely there are many Pevensies in London.”

“Yes Ma’am, we are certain. Almost all of them were carrying identification with this address; the only one who we are not completely sure about is a Peter Pevensie who was found near your brother Edmund. I am going to need you to come with me if you can.”

“Yes, I suppose I can, but I am going to need a few minutes to cancel out my plans for this afternoon and call my Uncle and Aunt.”

“Ma’am, just come down to the station when you can. You need to come soon though.”


“Uncle Harold, this is Susan. Just a moment ago, a police man came to my house telling me that my family was involved in a train crash. I figure he came because Edmund died in it. I really have no idea why everyone but my parents was on the train or in the station. Could you come and help me? I do not know what to do.”

“Susan, yes, I will come and help. Lucy was on that train because she was going to help Eustace go back to school. I suppose that Eustace and his friend Jill were in the crash too. I had best go break the news to your Aunt. She was worried about it when she heard the news come over the radio. I suspect that a good many people are going to be notified about their loved ones dying today.”

Which one do you guys prefer
 
Okay, Lava, I just now finished reading through in response to your VM. This beginning is better, because it gives the reader an immediate mental "handle" to catch hold of; and you can always fill in more exposition as you proceed.
 
i think the 1st beginning and the 2nd should be combined cus personally i like the 1st one :p and also can you make the story longer and more specific little stories later on. what was she thinking etc and i really love the ending but what happened next? it is sooo good and has soo much potential that i think you should expand and really make it a good long story! sry ill step down from my soapbox now :p
 
i like the first

Hi Lava
I like your fan fic because it brought many threads together from CoN, and built gradually and believably to the beautiful surprise ending. Thank you much for sharing... and spinning your tale for us to enjoy with you!

I like the original beginning better than the new one because it flowed more naturally. The new opening has your characters talking in such complete sentences that it felt a bit more emotionally disconnected. If I had just heard news of my whole family being killed I know I would not be so coherent. Nor would I be able to talk in such smooth sentences if I had been given the sad news to deliver to Susan... There seemed much more emotional power in your first opening...

My only suggestion would be to develop the ending just a bit more so the passage of time is more concrete, rather than just implied by Andrew's marriage and children and then sharing Susan's home.
 
Good ideas, but...

Well, I like your idea, but I was really bothered by the fact that Susan is speaking in complete sentences and not really acting as though it matters. I mean, she says “I cannot, first of all, just less than a week ago, my whole family died and I am not emotionally up to going out. Besides, because they all are gone, I have to sort through their stuff and put it where it belongs. I have to get off the phone now. Good-bye.” I'm sorry, but that sounds way to coherent and organized for someone who probably feels that they are totally alone in the world. And, when she first finds out, she says “Yes, I suppose I can, but I am going to need a few minutes to cancel out my plans for this afternoon and call my Uncle and Aunt.” I'm sorry, but if I just learned that my parents, my little brother, and my cousin all died, I have no idea what I would do, but I would not be in any way sane or coherent for at least a little while! As I said, though, really nice story idea. I just had a problem with how Susan handles everything without any apparent emotion. I mean, she says that she is "not emotionally up to going out," but that's a far cry from the devastation that she would probably be feeling when she suddenly has no family and no faith to help her with it.
 
Laurel, the experience of bereavement is as varied as life itself. Many bereaved persons do indeed become incoherent, but not all do. I know, I have SO been there.
 
Laurel, the experience of bereavement is as varied as life itself. Many bereaved persons do indeed become incoherent, but not all do. I know, I have SO been there.

I agree with Copperfox.

This story was amazing! It is true to the books and it gives me a better view of Susan. It also made me cry too. Thank you for making my day!
 
OK. I guess I don't know how someone would react. As I said, though, that was the only thing that bothered me. I really liked the story idea itself!
 
Trawling through past threads, actually looking for a totally different item, I came across your wonderful story. I thought it was brilliant! The ending, where Susan meets Aslan again, brought tears to my eyes, which is most unusual, as I am very much 'stiff upper lip' and do not normally show my emotions.
 
Not finished yet but..

Well, I have ot admit that at first I was thinking this wouldn't be that interesting. Well that thought died when I read the part about the rings - and the guinia pig for that matter :) can't wait to finish it. You've definitely captured my attention. :)
 
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