I'm just glad you're still with us. Don't forget the saying, "Where there's life, there's hope." Meanwhile, Sir Tom is restarting the Knights and Ladies group. I'm too busy now for that, but maybe you could participate.
Then I'll _continue_ praying for you. Meanwhile, now that Carol and I are married, we've already put in extensive work in the back yard of my house, preparing a vegetable garden.
I'm not a Moderator; it's up to them to say if you can just take over this account. As for Scriptures:
After my first wife died, Matthew 11:6 helped me not to be angry at God. After my second wife died, Isaiah 43:1 bore witness that he knows us all by name, and none of us ever disappears from His knowledge and His care.