And I wish that, with witnesses looking on to prove that the intention was proper, I could give you my shoulder to do your crying ON.
Have you ever heard of Corrie ten-Boom, a Dutch Christian woman who survived a Nazi death camp in World War Two? She had a sister named Betsie, who was a giant of faith, imprisoned with her. Betsie ten-Boom BELIEVED AND CLAIMED IN FAITH that she would survive the war and live on IN EARTHLY LIFE; she stated this belief to Corrie. But she STILL died of illness in that camp. This was NOT because Betsie ten-Boom "didn't believe hard enough;" it was because the sovereign God does not always exempt even His most faithful children from being vulnerable to natural processes.
I continue hoping for the best for you. For there ARE healings. A Christian man I know, for instance, had a deadly brain tumor... and suddenly the tumor just FELL OFF his brain, like the skin falling off a boiled potato.