Chapter 4:: Finding the Answer
Many nights after going to the Professor's house, Susan couldn't sleep well. Many nights she
wept on her pillow. Michelle was worried and told her mum about the situation. Mrs. Carey
decided to talk to Susan alone. One warm Tuesday night, Susan was sitting down in the garden
swing, staring at the starry sky.
"Susan?" came Mrs. Carey's voice.
Susan turned around. "Yes, Mrs. Carey?"
Mrs. Carey put her arm around Susan's. Then they both sat down on the swing.
"How are you, child?" asked Mrs. Carey. She wanted to approach the topic without uneasiness.
"Uhm, very well, Mrs. Carey.." replied Susan.
"How are you with Michelle? She's not giving you any problems, is she?"
"N-no..." replied Susan. "Um, Mrs. Carey, not to be rude, but is there something you would like
to tell me?"
"Sweetheart..." said Mrs. Carey slowly. "Yes, actually, I have,"
She stopped. Then the old woman took a deep breath. "Susan," she began. "I've heard from
Michelle that... That you've been having some problems,"
Susan said nothing.
"Michelle told me this because she was worried for you," continued Mrs. Carey. "And she went
to me for help.."
Still, Susan said nothing.
"Dear child, maybe you would like to tell me or a doctor about your problem?" Mrs. Carey looked
at Susan long, but with gentle eyes.
"Mrs. Carey, I... I'm fine. Completley fine. I took that problem off my mind days ago," smiled
Susan.
"But, dear, just last night Michelle heared you screaming 'Stop! Stop! No, please!'"
Susan's heart sank. She was again dreaming of her siblings.
"I... Are you sure?" she said shakily.
"Yes, my dear. Are you really sure the problem is completley off your mind?" questioned the old
lady once more.
Susan sighed. "Yes, it is still on my mind, but it'd be better if we needn't talk about it,"
replied the sixteen year old. "B-besides, I'm enjoying myself now. Quite happy with who I am."
Mrs. Carey seemed to be annoyed by the way Susan replied, but she understood the girl was
having a problem. "Alright, dear. But if you have any problems, do come to me, and I can help,
okay?"
Susan nodded. "May I sleep now, Mrs. Carey?"
Mrs. Carey smiled. "You may. Sleep tight, dear,"
Meanwhile, in Narnia, Lucy wouldn't eat, nor would she go swimming, horse riding or do any
archery. In fact, she hardly did anything. She would usually go to bed a lot earlier than usual.
Jill was definately noticing this, but she kept it to herself. After a few days, she could not take
it no more and told Lucy off.
"Lucy, my goodness!" she cried one morning. "Are you going to continue doing this forever?"
"What is it to you?" replied Lucy.
"Lucy, now don't you go answering me like that! Why don't you show some respect-"
Lucy was pissed off. "YOU CAN'T REPLACE SUSAN!! YOU CAN'T SHE'S MY ONLY SISTER!! NO
ONE CAN EVER REPLACE HER!!" Lucy yelled. "Now, will you just leave me alone??!"
Jill was terribly hurt. She cried at what Lucy said and ran out of the room. She ran in the hallway
and accidentally bumped Eustace on the way.
"What happend, Jill? Why are you crying?" he asked curiously.
"L-L-Lucy! She's so mean! I can't believe that's her now!!" Jill sobbed.
"Peter! Your Majesty!" called Eustace.
Peter and Edmund came running down the hall.
"Jill! What ever happend to you??" asked Peter in panic.
"It's Queen Lucy, your Majesty," replied Eustace. (Even though they were his cousins, Eustace
still respected them as Kings and Queens)
"Lucy? Oh, dear. Why?" said Peter worridly.
"She answered Jill back very impolitely, Sir," replied Eustace.
"What did she say?" asked Edmund.
"A-a-all I ever s-s-said wa-was I'm acting like he-her sister and sh-she g-got mad at m-me for
telling h-her that because a pe-person like m-me could never replace S-Susan..." Jill said shaking.
She leaned on Eustace and cried even more. Eustace, being her best friend, hugged her.
"That's it, I'm tired of Lucy's acting! I'm gonna-" began Edmund, but Peter cut him short.
"Peace, Ed. She's your sister too. And no one can blame her; sadness really can rule our lives."
"Not if we stop it," said Edmund.
"What's that?" asked Peter.
"Aslan can help us out now, for sure!" grinned Edmund.
"Ed, I don't think that's a good idea-" began Peter. But no one listened to him. They all began
running and disappeared behind the corner. Peter grunted.
"One day, I am so going to kill you, Ed," then he ran quickly after them.
Back on Earth, Mrs. Carey has been indeed watching Susan's every move. A few days passed
and Susan began thinking about the warning Jill gave her. 'If you don't come, we won't stop
bugging you...' She already went to the Professor's house. Days and days has passed after
that, and they never bothered her. "Was that what the warning was all about? Going to that
place?" Susan wondered. So many questions raced through her mind. One day, she couldn't
take all the thoughts bobbling in her head, she decided to go travel around the country and search
for the answer that she needed.
"I'll be back very soon, Mich, I promise," promised Susan.
"Take care of yourself!" Michelle sobbed. Susan began to cry too. The two best friends hugged each
other. Then Susan turned to Mrs. Carey.
"Thanks for everything, Mrs. Carey! My stay here was worth it!" smiled Susan.
"Aww, sweetheart, I wish we could do more for you," replied Mrs. Carey.
"You needn't. I've been welcomed well here," Susan grinned. Then she leaned forward and hugged
Mrs. Carey. She had felt like a mother to her. Susan began to cry non-stop.
"Susan, what's wrong?" asked Michelle.
"I... I've been a fool! I did the most foolish thing! Because I didn't care about my family, I've lost them all!"
she cried. "And... And, I miss the love of a mother; your mother has been like my mother!!" Susan sobbed.
She shed tears of sorrow as she missed her family. "I was such a fool... Foolish thing!" she told herself.
"Maybe you should stay, Su," said Michelle worridly.
"I... I can't. I have to do this; it might bring me to my family," To tell you the truth, Susan did want to stay
but she wanted to look for her family... Or even what she used to be.
"T-take care of yourself, darling," Mrs. Carey said. She, too began to cry. She embraced Susan lovingly like
a true daughter. Susan finally let go and started off for the dangerous journey.
Back in Narnia, Jill and Lucy weren't minding each other. Lucy tried everything to get her mind off Susan. But
nothing worked. The three boys wanted to speak to Aslan about this; but Aslan always wouldn't answer them.
Susan, meanwhile was in grief and wandering around the countryside of London. She made up her mind that she
would be staying at the Professor's house; even though she was alone and scared. "I'd rather be there than out
here in the bitter cold."
-End of Chapter 4-
Sorry for the late post guys!!!! Completely forgot about this. X]