a bit more - to make up for my past weekend.
LAUREN
"Mom, why did you and Dad get divorced?"
It was a silly way to start asking her mom something important, but it was also something Lauren really wanted to know.
Her mom stiffened, and said nothing. And Lauren dropped it.
She would ask the question at least three times a week. Knowing it was stupid, and it was really only getting her mom irritated. But she knew nothing of why her mom wouldn't talk about home. If she knew that, she'd know the right tactics to get her mom to agree for her to visit Derry again.
It was dinner, it was July. The Celtic Thunder concert was in a week. It was now or never to ask.
"Mom, please? Can't I know?"
"Why do you want to know?"
"I want to know why I'm not aloud to talk about Derry or my brother or anything like that? Was it THAT awful!?" Her voice rose.
She was surprised by her mom's reaction. They had had similar discussions before that normally ended in both yelling at each other. But her mother stayed quiet, and looked upset. Lauren immediately felt guilty, but curious. There was no response so Lauren asked, "Do you hate Dad, now?" She sounded like a little girl.
Her mom met her eyes now, and Lauren was even more surprised. She was smiling, it was a sad, heartbroken smile but a smile all the same. "No." She said quietly.
"Then why?" She asked, surprised.
"It's complicated," Her mother said slowly, "Neither you or Keith would have understood at the time. You probably still won't understand."
She was getting through to her, it was exciting. Her mom actually said her brother's name for the first time in 8 years. "Try me." She pleaded.
Her mom laughed, "It's quite dramatic," She warned.
She sounded ready to explain so Lauren only nodded.
"My parents, simple enough, did not approve of your father."
That WAS dramatic. "Then how did you marry him?"
"I basically defied my parents. I was more rebellious then, and I loved him. So much." She sighed, and sounded like a lovesick teenager. She was dumbstruck.
"Then?"
"I couldn't take it." She said sadly, "I was tearing myself in half, having to choose between my family, that lived here, and my family there. Your father and I discussed how to make it easier, but it normally ended in fights. In the end I told him it would be better if we weren't together. I lied."
Lauren stared, mouth-open, gawking. She never had expected that of her mom. She'd never expected ANY of that from her mom. She wondered how much Keith knew. "But- but-but" she stumbled, "Now? Now your mom and dad - they -they" They had died when Lauren was around 10. She remembered nothing of either of them. "Why haven't you come back?
Her mom laughed again, bittersweet, "Do you think he would take me back? I was the one to leave him." She sighed, again as well. "He probably remarried anyways."
She shook her head fast, "Keith says he hasn't so much as gone on a date with anoth-" OOPS! She hid her face in her hands in embarrassment, then dropped them.
It was her mother's turn to gawk. "Keith said this, did he?" She said quietly.
Lauren stared at the table and nodded.
"And just when were you talking to Keith?"
"Every Saturday." She whispered.
A pause, "Where did you find the number?"
"Vanessa. She knows him. We've been writing too." She paused, “He's in a group, you know. Of singers, they've toured the U.S. plenty of times. They've come here."
Tears were glistening in her mom's eyes, "And you saw them, didn't you?"
She nodded again, then said, "He wrote a song about me, mom. A song."
She didn't seem able to find her voice. Now or never, Lauren thought.
"They are doing a show in Dublin in a week. He invited me and you to come." He actually had only invited Lauren, but she wouldn't say that now. "I want to go. I miss him."
"I do too, Lauren." her mom spoke her name for the first time as well. Her face lit up.
"So can we?"
Silence. Crap.
Laughter, and a nod. Lauren cried, happily. Her mom mumbled, teasingly "I feel like I'm signing up for 'The Parent Trap'."
"You don't have to see dad, mom! That's not why I want to go." She said.
"I understand, love." Her mom said, softly, "Next week, did you say?"
"Yes"
"Then we need to get tickets." She was smiling like a teenager again.
Lauren hugged her, "Mom I love you so much!"
"It's the least I could do Lauren. I've been doing what my parents did to me, tearing you in two. I never wanted to do that. I've been acting silly this whole time haven't I?"
"Mom, you know I love you, so I have to say; yes! yes you have!"
They both laughed and hugged again.
"I'll have to call!" She added, "Tell them I'm coming!!" She laughed and twirled back into her room.
Halfway through dialing Damian's number she got a better idea.
An epic bit more.