That night, Anlaida saw the trailing flame of Arran’s candle as he slipped up a side passage on his way to the upper levels, but she ignored it, turning the opposite way. Her superstitious brother had either gone entirely barbarian, or those ballads his mother had sung, the ballads written in the peddler’s small book, had altered something of the Arran she had known. Or did I ever know him?
Her room, golden with uncertain candlelight, beckoned, but a restless spirit seemed to enter her feet, and she passed down the hall, by stairways and up corridors. By Soldor’s study she halted—he had left the door swaying open on its iron hinges, and crumpled papers scattering the floor. Gathering the papers in her hands, she continued on her way. Soldor knew—had been frequently instructed—to carry his trash to the wooden bin inside the water closet, but crumpled missives and ledger sheets often decorated the floor of his study.
She examined the papers in her hands, finding two ledger sheets, the crude inky drawing of a falcon, and an attempted letter. To the excellent Lord Denath of Salenna, greeting. Give my sincerest regards to— The last character was followed by an angry jolt of pen. Soldor hated composition of any kind, and personal missives above all.
Lord Denath, indeed. What below the skies would Soldor want with him? She deposited the papers in the proper container, clearly due for dumping into Bradoth Deep the next day. The tender’s son would come to collect the bin tomorrow morning, removing its contents for his father to burn in their hot place.
Anlaida made rounds of the first floor rooms, scanning them to see if anything was dust-specked or out of place. But Ulma had completed her tasks thoroughly, and Anlaida returned to the second floor rooms in the west wing. Slipping into her own chamber, she laid down on the bed as if to sleep in her clothes. Flame from the wall-candle jerked awkwardly, pulling shadows in every imaginable direction. She rolled to her feet. Even the roof might be preferable to stalking off her sleeplessness up and down the length of her bedchamber.
Anlaida scarcely ever visited the upper levels, generally leaving the servingmaids to do cleaning of them nearly unsupervised. The castle, stone and passaged inside, was cold as a rule, and the upper levels were even colder. She found that the shawl she had wrapped around herself could not block the drafts of air that seemed to breathe through the halls at whim. Clearly, she needed to be more sure that the upper levels were being cleaned more often: while a few cobwebs were rather to be expected, given how seldom the highest castle rooms were used, the accumulation of dirt in nearly every corner was not.
And someone assaulted Arran up here. She attempted to shake the thought from her head, but another followed as swiftly—It’s a small wonder.
Whoever had attacked Arran must have possessed a rather intimate knowledge of this particular castle, and of Arran’s habits in particular. One of the guard that came with Corath and his sisters, perhaps? Left behind, hiding in one of these rooms, watching us—
She scrutinized every shadow as she approached it, nearly jumping at the sound of her own breaths. Torches fastened at intervals to the walls cast a dull yellow light on the flagstones beneath her feet. She found the trap door onto the roof after some fifteen minutes of wandering and launched herself through it into darkness. “Arran?”
A black form separated suddenly from the castle wall. “Anlaida?” Her brother’s voice.
“I believe you made an invitation,” she said, stepping carefully forward.
He laughed aloud. “Aye, and you’re either bored or more trusting than most.”
She flushed in the darkness, smiling. “Bored. About the latter—you know better.”
“True,” he agreed. “’Fraid you’ve chosen a poor night for star watching, though. Even Rhonan has hardly moved tonight, and he—well. I can tell you about them, though.”
She followed him toward the edge of the roof and stood back as he sat easily down on the parapet. “Arran, do you realize how long that drop is?”
He nodded. She could scarcely make out the movement in the darkness.
“You should consider developing a fear of heights. I’m told it’s more valuable than not.”
He laughed at her, and she wondered that his laugh had survived so well.
“Seriously, Arran. You’re scaring me.”
He hopped off the wall , but only to oblige her, she felt sure. He pointed toward the sky. “Look, Anlaida. Mor is the one right above us—the oldest of the stars that shine in the North. He’s quiet tonight, but you can see his face—”
Anlaida squinted and frowned. “Arran, I can see the star you’re talking about is a little mottled, but there’s no face.”
His silence frowned at her.
“I really don’t see anything, Arran.”
“Do you usually have trouble seeing things that are far away?”
“Perhaps—no—I don’t know, Arran!” She shook her head. “But the stars are close up here.”
He blew out a breath. “You really don’t see it.”
“Did you when you were here before?” Anlaida demanded. She looked toward the sky, so fierce in its darkness where star-heat did not fall. The stars hung low over the castle tower, burning gold and white against the heavens.
He shrugged. “I never came up here.”
“Did you ever look out the windows?”
“I—” he faltered, lapsing into quiet. “Yes. And—”
“And?”
“I suppose I saw what you’re seeing now.”
She touched the cold stone parapet, not daring to glance down. “We’re wasting our time here, Arran.”
He shook his head, sitting on the parapet again. “I guess the first time I saw—” He stopped.
Anlaida could nearly feel the heat of the star he had called Mor.
“It was with Ronag,” he said huskily. “He took me to what the maps call Eagle-head Rock the night after I came, and—”
“And?” Anlaida said.
Arran’s voice seemed to clog his throat. He coughed several times, awkward with the pain of his memories. “If you come again, then maybe—”
She waited for Arran to finish his sentence, but he pulled away and swung his feet over the edge of the parapet. Anlaida stood still, looking at the faceless stars. Then she turned and slipped toward the door. Her foot caught on a jagged flagstone, scraping. Arran did not move. His face, turned to the light-spotted sky, might have been granite.