Not having anything like her potential new husband's experience with covert activity and security concerns, Ma'at initially gave no thought at all to the hazard of being targetted for eavesdropping; she had found a sympathetic older woman in Cecilia, and wanted to unburden herself to her. Cecilia, for her part, figured that the probabilities were against their _actually_ being under any deliberate surveillance at the moment, and she chose to trust God that no harm would come from letting the Egyptian-American woman (for so Ma'at had identified herself) tell her story.
"When I escaped with Meretseger and Montu from the Great Lakes Cantonment, I had to make it up as I went along. We were given shelter in a Collective Dormitory in Indiana, and a food allowance; but I had no profession, and my children had no vocational training. They did get to go to a public school in Indiana--Vanessa Redgrave Middle School, it was called; but no encouragement was held out for them to hope for careers. I got the idea that, though letting us take refuge from the abuse we had endured in Michigan, the Fairness Party didn't want to let us make any public noise about the _fact_ of the abuse. They were trying to keep the Cantonment happy by letting men like my ex-husband play innocent."
"And at some point you got the idea of becoming a performance artist," said Cecilia, chiefly to prove she was listening. "You wouldn't have had any chances to do a show back in the Cantonment, when you were wearing a burka."
Ma'at smiled at her new friend. "Right you are. I hear that actors and musicians in past eras often lived in grim poverty; that's true again today, at least for some. Five or six people at our dormitory were members of the Street Entertainers Union, which gave them legal status to beg on the streets under a pretext of amusing bypassers. That union doesn't demand much in the way of dues, because the members have so little to give; I learned that the federal government gives annual subsidies to the union, supposedly for the benefit of the artists, but the union bosses really keep every centavo of the money.
"Nonetheless, even that existence was better than being physically beaten up at random intervals; so I enrolled in the union, which cleared my children (they called them 'bioproducts') to perform with me. I had been watching what other performance artists did, and I figured out how to blend in the fragments of knowledge I had about my ancient Egyptian ancestors. Local Pinkshirts looked on me favorably, just for the fact that I was promoting--if only as a game--a 'spirituality' completely contrary to the Jewish and Christian beliefs that they hate. No, I don't really believe that the mythical Egyptian gods exist. I wouldn't even _consider_ believing that ANY God exists, if not for the fact that now and then I'm startled by someone being kind to my children and me when there's nothing in it for them.
"As you can tell, Mr. Randall is the one whose generosity has made the biggest impression on me; but others also have done us good turns in the months we've lived in Rapid City. If not for them, it would have been bad for us, what with the Enclave not having Collective Dormitories."
"We don't _need_ collective this-and-thats," remarked Cecilia, "because we practice mutual help here, _without_ having to be supervised by the government in how we do it."
Ma'at suddenly looked afraid. "Please, Mrs. Havens, don't be angry! I didn't mean to disregard the kindness _you're_ showing to us! I was only--"
She got no farther, before Cecilia enfolded her in a motherly hug, and poured over her the soothing balm of gentle words: "Don't be afraid, you poor darling, I'm not annoyed, I was just trying to give you confidence in our friendliness." Feeling the younger woman relax into her embrace, she went on: "I've seen Rapid City, and I got the feeling that the Overseers themselves _want_ it to be at least somewhat like bigger cities, in all the _negative_ ways."
Ma'at made so bold as to hug Cecilia back. "Certainly in the sense of having a powerless underclass. My children and I made our own three-person powerless underclass."
Cecilia kissed Ma'at's forehead. "And is this leading to an explanation of why you don't want to return to Rapid City?"
"Yes, Mrs. Havens." The raven-haired woman paused to look all around her, finally having a thought for the possibility of being overheard. Especially, of course, by the Cheyenne Indian pedicab driver who was barely a meter away from them. But the driver turned his face back toward his passengers right then, to mutter, "Don't worry, lady. The Havens family knows me, and they know that you could not possibly dislike the regime any more than I do. So tell Mrs. Havens whatever you want to tell her." And he looked ahead once more.
"Oh," said Ma'at in a tiny voice--then resumed her narrative to Cecilia. "Literally the very day after Bert had left town after our first meeting, Nash Dockerty, the man in charge of all Overseers inside the fence, watched an outdoor performance of ours, on the street that runs along the Dakota Hogback. I knew of him, though I hadn't met him up to then. He was easy to spot, by that odd cross between a Pinkshirt uniform and a business suit that he wears. On an impulse--not a wise impulse!--I improvised a little nursery-rhyme routine for him to hear, saying something like "Hickory dickory Deputy Dockerty, drinking the chicory, setting the clock-erty!' "
"That's really funny," Cecilia told her. "But I'll bet the Deputy Commander wasn't amused."
Ma'at sighed. "No, he wasn't. I found out, a bit too late, that he doesn't like to hear the word 'deputy' from his rank title in the same breath with his last name Dockerty; feels like anyone saying 'Deputy Dockerty' is on the way to ridiculing him."
The pedicab driver swivelled back once more, to say, "I know the type. So full of his fake dignity, he gets furious at the slightest sign of what even _might_ be disrespect. In his case, it would help if he didn't wear that stupid pink suit. None of the regular Pinkshirts go around in literally NOTHING BUT pink."
"He was outraged at me; waddled right up to me, knocked me down, and aimed a taser at me. Montu jumped in the way to shield me, and took the shock charge instead of me." Ma'at's tone went sarcastic. "You couldn't ask for a better start of a relationship, so _naturally_ I became Dockerty's plaything. There wasn't a chance to run away, as there had been when I lived in the Cantonment; all I could do was keep trying to appease him, to protect my children and myself. But there was no telling if he would get tired of me and then--do still worse things.
"When Bert reappeared, on his way back down from North Dakota Sector, I saw that this was my chance, my only hope. Maybe God planned it, for I did get an opportunity to see Bert when the Deputy Commander had other things to do. I couldn't reproduce as make-believe acting the begging and pleading I did; I was shameless, because I was desperate. In short, Bert promised to pretend he was crazy for me, and that he would tell the triumvirate that he wanted to take me and my children with him to Australia. He did in fact tell them, pointing out that they should have no objection because we would not be rejoining the American population at large, we would be going right out of the country. They took it under advisement.
"If you're wondering: no, Bert has not possessed me carnally. Unlike that walking fungus, Bert is NOT one to use a woman's vulnerability for his own lust. But he has to _pretend_ he's doing so. On the train last night, he and I shared a sleeping compartment; he let me fall asleep in his arms, with our clothes on, but did nothing more sensual than that, I swear it."
"I believe you," said Cecilia. "And of course we'll be praying that this works out for you."