Your Current Mood V

^^ Amen to that. The 'I hate physics' thing, I mean. I'm doing it now myself.

I feel elated :D

& Happy Halloween for tomorrow, everyone.
 
I am feeling upset. As I always do when I think of the pages from my diary which were like over 100 pages. I threw it out last summer, before going on vacation. I didn't want to come back. I wanted to leave. And I was afraid someone would find it. So I ...threw it out. I hate thinking about it. I try to make myself feel better, reminding myslf that a lot of the times I did not write, and he begning half was junk, but like the expereinces I wrote about reading was some that I wished I stil had written. I try t tell myself that I may have entries about those on my livejournal. I hope I do. *:{*
But I have begun to write again so that's good. Actually, I wrote the next morning after coming back. Just two weeks before that, I had a ton of entries. How would anyone have found it? They were hidden...
And I always think on like that. one side pushing harder than the other.
 
I still have that gross sick feeling.
Ew.
But I am always amazed at how fast medications work. Yesterday, my dad pretty much had to carry me into the doctors office. Now, after just a day of medicine, I am just kinda sick to my stomach and achy.
 
umbrellaxscenexcore said:
I am feeling upset. As I always do when I think of the pages from my diary which were like over 100 pages. I threw it out last summer, before going on vacation. I didn't want to come back. I wanted to leave. And I was afraid someone would find it. So I ...threw it out. ...
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I can imagine how you must feel. I have been journalling since I was a freshman in high school, thanks to a visionary creative writing teacher. And I have most of my journals dating back 33 years!!!! Sometimes, when I'm going out of town and the house sitter or my brother will be checking in while I'm gone, I take special care to hide those treasures!

You know, you did the best thing you knew to do at the time. I'm glad you are writing again. May God console you and meet you in your empty places always. Blessings, umbrellaxscenexcore.


As for my current mood, I am feeling happy to be listening to encouraging Christian music. It's keeping me just far enough away from an unexplainable weepiness i've been grappling with all week. :confused: But God is in control.
 
I'm feeling a bit frustrated at the other people living in the dorm that I'm in. They just have not respect for people who have classes at 7:30 in the morning! Running up and down the halls and yelling... It just kills me! :mad:
I'm also frustrated with myself for being so quiet all the time. I feel like it's preventing me from making friends. :(
 
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