"Hidden Dreamer" (my songs and poems)

Thanks.
OMG The Justin Brown Translation is like my new FAV band!!!
THEY ARE SO TALENTED!!! Even with a cold!!! LOL
And they aren't bad looking either! I was gonna take some pics for y'all but it was so packed!!!
I think these guys are going far and I will be able to say... I knew some of the band!!! And I saw them before they were big!!!
 
I wrote this kind of on the spot of this stupid situation that I got dragged into but really don't have any part in it and don't wish to. But it's just been yet another place for people to judge me, and yeah... so this is a rough draft of and "anger song."

I am so tired of being judged,
I hate being in the middle, I hate being bugged,
I'm not who you think I am,
I can do more than you think I can.
Stop hating me,
Stop judging me falsely.

Chorus:
You don't know who I am.
You say I am who you want me to be.
No one will listen to you, just stop this scam,
We both know this is not really me.

I know you're mad,
but don't ask me why.
This whole situation is bad,
But it isn't mine.
So don't get me involved,
I want nothing to do with this.
I don't care if this get's resolved,
It's all gone amiss.

Chorus:
You don't know who I am.
You say I am who you want me to be.
No one will listen to you, just stop this scam,
We both know this is not really me.

Just leave me alone,
I don't want to take a part
I was just fine on my own,
before someone meddled with hearts.
This whole thing makes me so mad,
The imiturity,
it's just a fad,
So don't even talk to me.

Chorus:
You don't know who I am.
You say I am who you want me to be.
No one will listen to you, just stop this scam,
We both know this is not really me.

I don't know where you stand,
But don't bother me,
This is my one demand,
The one I intend to keep.
This will all blow over.
And you will see it like I do when you all get older.

Chorus:
You don't know who I am.
You say I am who you want me to be.
No one will listen to you, just stop this scam,
We both know this is not really me.

So just figure it out,
all on your own.
Don't just sit there and pout,
I won't listen to your groan.
Just grow up,
and be mature,
suck it up
and endure.
 
wow, i just read the whole thing cuz i was a little confused so i wanted to say

(Wow... thank you. That was very touching.
But honestly... I don't deserv anything! I am a sinner and I don't always have righteous thoughts about the way my life is working. But I do appreaciate your understanding.
I have the chorus ONLY to a song I'm writing about people juging me.
Personally I AM proud to be a PK but It seems to put a target on my chest that says: Look at me! I'm not perfect! Point it out! Watch me, Wait for me to mess up!!!
yeah... that sux but I have gotten used to it a bit. People have been juging me my whole life, for everything from being a part of a big family, to being schooled so privately, or having my dad e a pastor or the clothes I wear or what and how I sing or that I wear make up and do my hair certain ways!
GOSH there is always something!
I really appreaciate your understanding. It makes me feel a whole lot better.
I think I'm going to go write some more songs and things anf I'll have to turn in early because school starts again tomorrow.
Thank you all for your beautiful words of encouragement!

~ Kate)

i always act like someone im not..at least ppl kno who u really are, and not wat u pretend to be.... i used to be in private school until i was in 5th grade then 6th grade i went to public, and i changed....i was sometimes made fun of and i couldnt seem to fit in with the ppl i liked...so i just, changed.....i love pink and girly things...but some discouraging things made me put these aside....i am very self conscious and so i was always embarrassed of myself...and so i never wear pink and i never wear girly things...i always wear a black jacket over anything i have on....anything i feel is too show offy or ppl would think i was a snob if i wore i dont wear....im very conservative...but thats just the show i put off....who i am inside isnt really like that...i want to be a writer more than anything, but i am scared. of failing and ppl making fun of wat i write. i like to sing too but i am embarrassed. but reading this has helped me a little. i just hope i can be myself someday. i like to listen to the song "unwritten" by natasha bedingfield...also "shut up" and "im just a kid" by simple plan but im not saying those have a very positive effect...really.........well, um, sry this is soo long!!!!!

and to mar... i would love to go to your concert too!!
 
Thanks laugh-a-lot but I'm not always quite myself. I am mostly but there will always be the deeper part of me that only comes out when I am completely alone. I am more myself on here and with a few very close friends than most places but it's hard... people say I am different around my friends when really I think I might be different around my family or both and I don't even know what being myself is anymore.
Okay I know I must be confusing people more and more... I am working on a duet to sing with my friend sort of as a gift and then THE song I want to record as mine and when I am satidfied enough with them I will try to post them.
 
Thank you! I just found out that I was excepted to the two week music camp I wanted to go to this summer!!!! YAY
I have voice in a few minutes so I have to go but I'll try to post more soon!
 
heyy willsgirl! i just wanted to know how the music stuff was going! i hope good. i know its crazy sometimes...but you are very talented so you shouldn't have any problems..well i shouldnt say ANY but. okay well yeah, just PM me or somthing and give me the "update" i'd love to hear from you!

thanks so much,
Mar <3
 
Thanks Mar, I will!
As far as music careers taking off... go check out one of my favorite bands here: http://www.myspace.com/thejustinbrowntranslation
You can listen to a rough copy of their latest song Go and it is REALLY good! Here are the lyrics just to entice you!!!

Lyrics for "GO rough cut"
So I've found that life is often less than perfect,
but it's worth it.
And the good times that we know just could not be so
with out the bad to compare and contrast

CHORUS
So go. Play your part.
Don't let life break your heart.
You'll be fine.
So go. Llive your life.
You're gonna be alright.
Just give it time. Just give it time.

Some days may come when all you see is dark skies,
but open your eyes.
And with every breath you breath try your best to see
Even bad days can be beautiful so beautiful

CHORUS

The things you do
Tthe loves you lose
It's not always up to you

CHORUS
 
So y'all tell me what you think of that band!

So here is another one of MY original songs and this is VERY rough but it will probably be the first original that I record and what not... It's called:

Compassion


I've got the weight of the world on my shoulders,
I see the girl who is hurt but no one holds her,
I see the poor boy struggling to be a man,
but he can't, no he can't,
and I see the people, calling for help,
but no one hears them, so they're all by themselves.

Am I the only one who sees this?
It's not that hard how could one miss it?

I don't have to be a hero,
I don't need to save the day,
But this feeling's got me so low,
And I can't push it away.

Chorus:
I want to see compassion,
I want a real reaction, from this world,
get rid of the distractions, give it a whirl,
and take your place,
show some love show some grace,
show some grace.

Bridge:
'cause I'm hiding alone
and I'm here on my own, (repeat)

So much poverty, so much crying,
not enough offering, not enough trying.

Let me stay here, and ponder these thoughts,
just as log as, I'm not too far lost,

Chorus

Can't you see?
What is happening?
You don't care anymore,
but you did before...

Chorus

I've got the wieght of the world on my shoulders
 
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