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DestinyLies, you are a great writer!!!!
*wild cheering*
Please,please write a sequel. i also write, but mine are probably nowhere as good as your's.
Keep it up!
*wild cheering*
Please,please write a sequel.
i also write, but mine are probably nowhere as good as your's. Keep it up!
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A sequel??? To what? haha. Thanks I'm glad you like my stuff.
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More of Chapter 2!
Here is more of Chapter 2:
I pushed Joe towards the living room where the adults were headed. “Go.” I whispered. He turned and walked with me inside the room where we sat down on the couch.
“So, Kandie, how is your family? Are they all well?” Celia Guyer asked me.
“They are all fine, yes.” I told her. “Daniel is graduating this year.” I spoke of my older brother.
“Is he old enough?” Celia laughed. ‘Of course he is or he wouldn’t be graduating. What about the others? Sarah your twin?”
“They are all fine.” I said again. “Sarah is taking honors classes, as am I.”
“Oh, your parents must be proud.” Celia smiled at me.
“Yes, they are.” I nodded smiling back at her.
“She’s very talkative.” Joe whispered into my ear.
“I noticed.” I looked up at him. “It’s OK.” I said to him. “I don’t mind.”
Joe glanced towards the fireplace where Austin sat, the boy was starring at me. “Stay away from Austin please.” Joe looked back down at me.
“Um, OK.” I looked down at my hands. “I’m sure I can do that.”
“Does anyone want to go outside and look at the horses?” Mr. Guyer asked.
Andrew, Anna, Jane, and Jonah said yes.
“Sure.” I spoke up.
“I can go.” Austin told his uncle.
“I can go show them around so you can stay in here, Dad.” Joe said glaring at Austin.
“Easy.” I whispered to him.
“Thank you, Joe.” Mr. Guyer nodded at Joe. “Just be careful.” He warned as Joe and I stood up.
“We will, I know.” Joe looked at his siblings, and cousins. “Ready?” He asked.
They all nodded. After getting our coats on, we followed Joe outside to the barn.
“Are you OK?” I asked Joe once we were outside, a few feet ahead of the others.
“I’m fine.” Joe nodded. “I just don’t like Austin staring at you.”
“Well, if it helps, I don’t like it either.” I looked back over my shoulder at Austin who was the closest person to us. “It makes me feel uncomfortable.”
“I’m sure it does.” Joe pulled the barn door open. “Don’t let him bother you.”
“Can I stay with you?” I looked up at him. “It’ll help.”
Austin had reached us by now, he looked from me to Joe and back to me.
“Jonah, take them to Jolly’s stall.” Joe told Jonah who had come up behind Austin.
Jonah obeyed. “If you want you can stay with me, I don’t mind.” He said with a smile. “If it will make you feel more comfortable.”
I nodded. “It will.”
“OK.” Joe turned and we walked towards the others gathered in front of Jolly’s stall. “We might be able to go on a trail ride tomorrow.” Joe said when he reached them.
“Can I ride Lightning?” Andrew asked.
“No sorry, Andy, only I can ride him.” Joe shook his head. “Kandie will ride Snow White.” He added.
“If some one else wants to ride her I can ride Jolly or one of the other horses.” I spoke up seeing Anna’s face fall in disappointment.
“We’ll talk about it later.” Joe said more to Anna then anyone else. Anna nodded.
I held my hand, full of oats, out towards Jolly. The big light brown horse leaned his head down and ate the food, his long chin hairs tickling my hand. I giggled and pulled my hand away.
“He likes you.” Austin spoke from beside me.
I had jumped at his voice. “Um, I guess.” I didn’t look at the boy.
“Who doesn’t like someone feeding them out of their hand?” Joe had come up on my other side. If I had looked up I would’ve seen Joe’s glare he was shooting at his cousin over my head. “Jolly is easily persuaded.” He stroked the horses nose. “He likes any one who comes up to him.”
I stepped away from the two boys, afraid I would get hurt by the looks they were giving each other, and walked towards Snow’s stall where the others had gathered. “He doesn’t like it at all.” I whispered to Jane stepping up next to her. I reached my hand out to Snow, the big horse stuck her head out towards my hand.
“I know.” Jane said. “It wouldn’t bother him as much if Austin didn’t stare at you.” She looked back as Joe and Austin joined us.
We stayed out for another fifteen minutes before Mrs. Guyer called us back inside. I walked beside of Joe back to the house.
“I’m sorry.” Joe said, the others had already gone inside the house, we were the only two left on the porch.
“For what?” I asked looking questioningly up at him. I wrapped my arms around myself.
“Acting the way I have towards Austin.” Joe replied. “I guess I got jealous and mad at him, and that was wrong.” He shifted his weight from one foot to the other nervously. “I acted like you were my girlfriend, and you’re not.”
I wasn‘t sure how I felt about the word ‘girlfriend‘, or the sentence it was in. “Joe, it’s OK. I know.” I shrugged. “I probably would’ve acted the same way if it had been me.” I admitted. “I told you I didn’t like him staring at me and that didn’t help the way you were feeling towards him.” I didn’t look at him.
“You two coming in?” Mrs. Guyer asked from where she now stood in the doorway.
“Yes, ma’am.” Joe told her. “Come on.” He jerked his head in the direction of the door and followed me inside.
I sat in the living room surrounded by Joe’s family, the fire burned warming my back. Celia, Melissa, and Janise Guyer sat talking about shopping plans, Jonah, Austin, and Andrew were watching something on TV, Jane had gone with Anna up to her room, and Joe sat next to me. I wasn’t sure where the men were. Girlfriend. The word flittered through my mind again. Did I want to be Joe’s girlfriend? If he asked me to be that is. Yes, I think I would. I looked towards the window when I heard a howl. “Trimsy.” I whispered.
“What?” Joe looked over at me. “Did you say something?” He asked.
“No.” I shook my head. “Just mumbling to myself. Sorry.” I felt my face reddening. Should I tell him? I wondered. The howl sounded again. She was getting worried. “Can we take I walk? I want to talk to you.” I barely got the phrase out because I wasn’t sure I wanted to say it.
Joe nodded. “Sure.” He stood. “Mama, Kandie and I are going to go for a walk.” Joe said once the women were at a good place to interrupt.
“All right. Be home before dinner.” Mrs. Guyer smiled at us.
“Yes, ma’am.” Joe nodded and walked with me out of the room. We grabbed our coats, slid into them, and walked outside of the house. “Are you OK?” Joe asked once we stepped outside.
I nodded. “I’m fine, I want to show you something.” I explained leading him into the woods.
“OK.” Joe followed me. “What are you going to show me that we had to come outside for?” He asked curiously, pushing a tree limb out of the way.
“I can’t show you inside.” I replied stepping over a rock. “You’ll see why when you see it.” I added. I heard the howl, it was faint, but I still heard it. (Question to Reader: The part I am about to put in- until they get to the clearing- should I keep it in, or wait until later on?) “Um, Joe.” I spoke after a few silent minutes.
“Yeah?” Joe looked at me.
“Earlier when you said that you acted like I was your girlfriend and I’m not, did you mean that you wanted me to be? Or something else?” I asked him nervously twisting my fingers around each other.
“Um, I do want you to be my girlfriend, but I’m not sure how you felt so I didn’t want to say anything. Especially since we just met, or re-met, yesterday.” Joe seemed just as nervous as me. “And I was, I am, afraid that you don’t like me the same way that I like you.” He explained, he stopped walking.
“Oh.” I bit the inside of my cheek. “Well, you shouldn’t be afraid.” I turned towards him. “I do like you, as I know half of the girls at school do, and if you want to wait a little longer I‘ll understand.”
Joe didn’t say anything for a few moments. “And what if I don’t want to wait?” Joe kept his eyes on mine. “Will you be my girlfriend?”
I nodded. “Yes.” I managed to squeak, shocked at how well, and fast, the conversation had gone.
Joe’s dimple-appearing smile spread up his face.
Once we were in a clearing I stopped. “Close you’re eyes.” I told Joe. Once he did I reached pulled out from underneath my shirt the thin whistle , raised it to my lips and blew. Of course no sound came. Once Trimsy and the other wolves, they were the only animals I had “called” for, were in the circle behind me I told Joe to open his eyes. When he did he stepped back. “It’s OK.” I reached towards him. “They won’t hurt you, or me.” I promised. “See.” I turned towards the wolves and knelt down on the ground. Trimsy bounded towards me, I scratched her head and shoulders. She looked back at Joe. “He’s a friend.” I told her. I looked back at Joe. “Come here. I promise they won’t hurt you.” I said.
Joe cautiously walked over to me, and knelt down next to me. “These are wolves right?” He asked, reaching his hand towards Trimsy, she let him run his hand across the top of her head and down her back.
“Yes, they are.” I nodded. “They’re mine.” I added watching his face for reaction.
“Really?” Joe looked at me questioningly.
I nodded again. “Yes.” I scratched Trimsy’s head. “I found this whistle one day in the woods.” I held up the object. “ It was dangling from a tree limb so someone must‘ve lost it. I blew it, and these animals started following me. I was so scared at first because I didn’t know what was happening.”
DestinyLies
I know the way I -Kandie- got the animals is a little lame....I will change it...unless my readers think it's fine.
Here is more of Chapter 2:
I pushed Joe towards the living room where the adults were headed. “Go.” I whispered. He turned and walked with me inside the room where we sat down on the couch.
“So, Kandie, how is your family? Are they all well?” Celia Guyer asked me.
“They are all fine, yes.” I told her. “Daniel is graduating this year.” I spoke of my older brother.
“Is he old enough?” Celia laughed. ‘Of course he is or he wouldn’t be graduating. What about the others? Sarah your twin?”
“They are all fine.” I said again. “Sarah is taking honors classes, as am I.”
“Oh, your parents must be proud.” Celia smiled at me.
“Yes, they are.” I nodded smiling back at her.
“She’s very talkative.” Joe whispered into my ear.
“I noticed.” I looked up at him. “It’s OK.” I said to him. “I don’t mind.”
Joe glanced towards the fireplace where Austin sat, the boy was starring at me. “Stay away from Austin please.” Joe looked back down at me.
“Um, OK.” I looked down at my hands. “I’m sure I can do that.”
“Does anyone want to go outside and look at the horses?” Mr. Guyer asked.
Andrew, Anna, Jane, and Jonah said yes.
“Sure.” I spoke up.
“I can go.” Austin told his uncle.
“I can go show them around so you can stay in here, Dad.” Joe said glaring at Austin.
“Easy.” I whispered to him.
“Thank you, Joe.” Mr. Guyer nodded at Joe. “Just be careful.” He warned as Joe and I stood up.
“We will, I know.” Joe looked at his siblings, and cousins. “Ready?” He asked.
They all nodded. After getting our coats on, we followed Joe outside to the barn.
“Are you OK?” I asked Joe once we were outside, a few feet ahead of the others.
“I’m fine.” Joe nodded. “I just don’t like Austin staring at you.”
“Well, if it helps, I don’t like it either.” I looked back over my shoulder at Austin who was the closest person to us. “It makes me feel uncomfortable.”
“I’m sure it does.” Joe pulled the barn door open. “Don’t let him bother you.”
“Can I stay with you?” I looked up at him. “It’ll help.”
Austin had reached us by now, he looked from me to Joe and back to me.
“Jonah, take them to Jolly’s stall.” Joe told Jonah who had come up behind Austin.
Jonah obeyed. “If you want you can stay with me, I don’t mind.” He said with a smile. “If it will make you feel more comfortable.”
I nodded. “It will.”
“OK.” Joe turned and we walked towards the others gathered in front of Jolly’s stall. “We might be able to go on a trail ride tomorrow.” Joe said when he reached them.
“Can I ride Lightning?” Andrew asked.
“No sorry, Andy, only I can ride him.” Joe shook his head. “Kandie will ride Snow White.” He added.
“If some one else wants to ride her I can ride Jolly or one of the other horses.” I spoke up seeing Anna’s face fall in disappointment.
“We’ll talk about it later.” Joe said more to Anna then anyone else. Anna nodded.
I held my hand, full of oats, out towards Jolly. The big light brown horse leaned his head down and ate the food, his long chin hairs tickling my hand. I giggled and pulled my hand away.
“He likes you.” Austin spoke from beside me.
I had jumped at his voice. “Um, I guess.” I didn’t look at the boy.
“Who doesn’t like someone feeding them out of their hand?” Joe had come up on my other side. If I had looked up I would’ve seen Joe’s glare he was shooting at his cousin over my head. “Jolly is easily persuaded.” He stroked the horses nose. “He likes any one who comes up to him.”
I stepped away from the two boys, afraid I would get hurt by the looks they were giving each other, and walked towards Snow’s stall where the others had gathered. “He doesn’t like it at all.” I whispered to Jane stepping up next to her. I reached my hand out to Snow, the big horse stuck her head out towards my hand.
“I know.” Jane said. “It wouldn’t bother him as much if Austin didn’t stare at you.” She looked back as Joe and Austin joined us.
We stayed out for another fifteen minutes before Mrs. Guyer called us back inside. I walked beside of Joe back to the house.
“I’m sorry.” Joe said, the others had already gone inside the house, we were the only two left on the porch.
“For what?” I asked looking questioningly up at him. I wrapped my arms around myself.
“Acting the way I have towards Austin.” Joe replied. “I guess I got jealous and mad at him, and that was wrong.” He shifted his weight from one foot to the other nervously. “I acted like you were my girlfriend, and you’re not.”
I wasn‘t sure how I felt about the word ‘girlfriend‘, or the sentence it was in. “Joe, it’s OK. I know.” I shrugged. “I probably would’ve acted the same way if it had been me.” I admitted. “I told you I didn’t like him staring at me and that didn’t help the way you were feeling towards him.” I didn’t look at him.
“You two coming in?” Mrs. Guyer asked from where she now stood in the doorway.
“Yes, ma’am.” Joe told her. “Come on.” He jerked his head in the direction of the door and followed me inside.
I sat in the living room surrounded by Joe’s family, the fire burned warming my back. Celia, Melissa, and Janise Guyer sat talking about shopping plans, Jonah, Austin, and Andrew were watching something on TV, Jane had gone with Anna up to her room, and Joe sat next to me. I wasn’t sure where the men were. Girlfriend. The word flittered through my mind again. Did I want to be Joe’s girlfriend? If he asked me to be that is. Yes, I think I would. I looked towards the window when I heard a howl. “Trimsy.” I whispered.
“What?” Joe looked over at me. “Did you say something?” He asked.
“No.” I shook my head. “Just mumbling to myself. Sorry.” I felt my face reddening. Should I tell him? I wondered. The howl sounded again. She was getting worried. “Can we take I walk? I want to talk to you.” I barely got the phrase out because I wasn’t sure I wanted to say it.
Joe nodded. “Sure.” He stood. “Mama, Kandie and I are going to go for a walk.” Joe said once the women were at a good place to interrupt.
“All right. Be home before dinner.” Mrs. Guyer smiled at us.
“Yes, ma’am.” Joe nodded and walked with me out of the room. We grabbed our coats, slid into them, and walked outside of the house. “Are you OK?” Joe asked once we stepped outside.
I nodded. “I’m fine, I want to show you something.” I explained leading him into the woods.
“OK.” Joe followed me. “What are you going to show me that we had to come outside for?” He asked curiously, pushing a tree limb out of the way.
“I can’t show you inside.” I replied stepping over a rock. “You’ll see why when you see it.” I added. I heard the howl, it was faint, but I still heard it. (Question to Reader: The part I am about to put in- until they get to the clearing- should I keep it in, or wait until later on?) “Um, Joe.” I spoke after a few silent minutes.
“Yeah?” Joe looked at me.
“Earlier when you said that you acted like I was your girlfriend and I’m not, did you mean that you wanted me to be? Or something else?” I asked him nervously twisting my fingers around each other.
“Um, I do want you to be my girlfriend, but I’m not sure how you felt so I didn’t want to say anything. Especially since we just met, or re-met, yesterday.” Joe seemed just as nervous as me. “And I was, I am, afraid that you don’t like me the same way that I like you.” He explained, he stopped walking.
“Oh.” I bit the inside of my cheek. “Well, you shouldn’t be afraid.” I turned towards him. “I do like you, as I know half of the girls at school do, and if you want to wait a little longer I‘ll understand.”
Joe didn’t say anything for a few moments. “And what if I don’t want to wait?” Joe kept his eyes on mine. “Will you be my girlfriend?”
I nodded. “Yes.” I managed to squeak, shocked at how well, and fast, the conversation had gone.
Joe’s dimple-appearing smile spread up his face.
Once we were in a clearing I stopped. “Close you’re eyes.” I told Joe. Once he did I reached pulled out from underneath my shirt the thin whistle , raised it to my lips and blew. Of course no sound came. Once Trimsy and the other wolves, they were the only animals I had “called” for, were in the circle behind me I told Joe to open his eyes. When he did he stepped back. “It’s OK.” I reached towards him. “They won’t hurt you, or me.” I promised. “See.” I turned towards the wolves and knelt down on the ground. Trimsy bounded towards me, I scratched her head and shoulders. She looked back at Joe. “He’s a friend.” I told her. I looked back at Joe. “Come here. I promise they won’t hurt you.” I said.
Joe cautiously walked over to me, and knelt down next to me. “These are wolves right?” He asked, reaching his hand towards Trimsy, she let him run his hand across the top of her head and down her back.
“Yes, they are.” I nodded. “They’re mine.” I added watching his face for reaction.
“Really?” Joe looked at me questioningly.
I nodded again. “Yes.” I scratched Trimsy’s head. “I found this whistle one day in the woods.” I held up the object. “ It was dangling from a tree limb so someone must‘ve lost it. I blew it, and these animals started following me. I was so scared at first because I didn’t know what was happening.”
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I know the way I -Kandie- got the animals is a little lame....I will change it...unless my readers think it's fine.
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Poem for Chase
R.I.P Chase Austin Altman (1989-2009)
I love you.....
DestinyLies
R.I.P Chase Austin Altman (1989-2009)
I love you.....
Tears are streaking down my face
No matter how bad he wouldn’t want them to.
My feelings grew for him,
Even when I knew they didn’t need to.
I didn’t know his feelings towards me…
Until he was gone.
I still, and forever will, love him.
He always told me not to worry about him
And I know he wouldn’t want me crying
The words “he loved you” keep coming back,
I don’t know why he didn’t tell me
And I won’t know until I meet him in Heaven.
The black bear is here next to me,
Just like he was in spirit ever since he left.
It hard for me to let him go,
To accept the fact that he is gone,
That I won’t get to talk to him again
On this earth anyway.
I don’t know how long that will be,
But as always I’ll try to be patient….
That’s one thing he taught me,
Patience.
Rest In Peace…My Chase.
No matter how bad he wouldn’t want them to.
My feelings grew for him,
Even when I knew they didn’t need to.
I didn’t know his feelings towards me…
Until he was gone.
I still, and forever will, love him.
He always told me not to worry about him
And I know he wouldn’t want me crying
The words “he loved you” keep coming back,
I don’t know why he didn’t tell me
And I won’t know until I meet him in Heaven.
The black bear is here next to me,
Just like he was in spirit ever since he left.
It hard for me to let him go,
To accept the fact that he is gone,
That I won’t get to talk to him again
On this earth anyway.
I don’t know how long that will be,
But as always I’ll try to be patient….
That’s one thing he taught me,
Patience.
Rest In Peace…My Chase.
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Two more poems..
Two poems...
DestinyLies
Two poems...
You're gone now,
And it's hard
To so good bye.
You were always something special
And I miss you so much.
You were always there for me,
One of the greatest friends I've ever had.
You never showed the pain you were in,
Because you didn't want me to worry-
But I still did.
I know you're in Heaven,
Free from the cancer, pain, suffering, and stress.
I know you're OK,
Safe in the arms of our Lord.
It's going to be hard for a while,
With out you here,
But I will see you soon....
....I love you, Chase...
and
He was a great friend,
Someone who always made people laugh,
Who wanted every one to be happy,
Even when the Cancer came,
And destroyed him,
He didn't want anyone to worry about him.
Saying good bye to Chase
Is hard for any one who knew him-
Regardless of how short you knew him-
Many were greatly impacted by him,
I know I was.
He is in Heaven now
Free of pain and sickness,
With his mom and Christ,
Both who he loves so much.
It is a great comfort, to us believers,
That we will see him one day soon.
We will always remember him,
As he is hard to forget,
Keeping him in our hearts and thoughts
Is one way to keep him alive.
And it's hard
To so good bye.
You were always something special
And I miss you so much.
You were always there for me,
One of the greatest friends I've ever had.
You never showed the pain you were in,
Because you didn't want me to worry-
But I still did.
I know you're in Heaven,
Free from the cancer, pain, suffering, and stress.
I know you're OK,
Safe in the arms of our Lord.
It's going to be hard for a while,
With out you here,
But I will see you soon....
....I love you, Chase...
and
He was a great friend,
Someone who always made people laugh,
Who wanted every one to be happy,
Even when the Cancer came,
And destroyed him,
He didn't want anyone to worry about him.
Saying good bye to Chase
Is hard for any one who knew him-
Regardless of how short you knew him-
Many were greatly impacted by him,
I know I was.
He is in Heaven now
Free of pain and sickness,
With his mom and Christ,
Both who he loves so much.
It is a great comfort, to us believers,
That we will see him one day soon.
We will always remember him,
As he is hard to forget,
Keeping him in our hearts and thoughts
Is one way to keep him alive.
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*is speechless* *hugs Des tight* Love ya girlie.
DestinyLies
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why does that make you speechless???
Nightcrawler_Fan
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I don't know. It's just so.....touching.
DestinyLies
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Oh.....OK.
DestinyLies
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I wrote this...almost a month ago...
Nightcrawler_Fan
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That's awesome Des. Really moving.
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Yeah...it made Chase's girlfriend mad...i wrote it to him....and sent it to him.
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I am in the proccess of writing a letter to Chase...and I'll try to get something new up soon.
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Thanks...which poem???
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Chase's letter...
I wasn't sure if I should post this on here, but since everyone was praying for him I wanted to:
Chase,
You told me to “chill out and be happy…that’s how I like you best,” over two months ago…and now I am trying to do what you say but when you’re gone it’s hard. I miss you so much, Chase, and I don’t understand what happened, why you hid your feelings from me, or why God chose to take you. You were, and still are, such a great help to me. You were always there for me, willing and ready to listen, that’s one thing you did best; listen. You would listen to any one, about anything, at any time. Many nights I kept you awake talking, you said it was OK, and I appreciate that so much. You didn’t want me to cry, and I know you wouldn’t want me to now. It’s just hard to believe that you’re gone, I will never talk to you again -until I get to Heaven that is- I will never get that excited feeling when I see your name appear on my phone, or how easy you could tell that I wasn’t OK. The first time that I met you I knew that you were different, unique. You always tried to make me smile, make me feel better about myself, and make sure that I was OK. The few times I frustrated you, I didn’t understand why you didn’t just tell me to leave you alone, and I still don’t sometimes. You always said it was OK, that I wasn’t annoying, and that I didn’t bug you. You always some how made me smile when I was down, because that’s how you are, you want everyone to be happy, everyone to laugh. I keep expecting to talk to you any minute…but then I remember- you’re gone. You’re no longer on this earth, you are in Heaven- free from the pain you never showed was hurting- with your Mom and our Lord. It’s hard thinking that I will no longer talk to you until I get to Heaven, but I know that you’re in a better place, you’re safe, and away from all of the troubles of life. Three times in the period of three months you’re life was threatened: and the third one won. I don’t know why God let us meet, only to take you away, I’m just glad that he did. Even though it was a short period of time, and I wish that it could’ve been longer and better, it is a time that I will always cherish. Every time you went into the hospital I got worried, and a few times cried, because I didn’t want to lose you. One thing that you taught me, in the few months we talked, was patience. Whether it was by waiting for you to get out of class, or work, or for you to text me back…I learned to be patient. I didn’t want to annoy you, but I ended up doing it anyway, so I tried to wait. There are so many things that I want to say, and that I wish I had said (or not said) but I can’t tell them to you anymore, or say I’m sorry. I know that you would forgive me anyway, even if I didn’t deserve it, and listen to me talk only “giving your two cents” as you put it to me once.
You told me one time that you liked talking to me, but why you never said, just like you never told me why you liked me…or what your true feelings were towards me the last month you lived, until now. I don’t understand why you kept it hidden, from not only me but also everyone except Sarah, but I don’t really care I know now. I think that you didn’t want me to hurt more when you left, it’s something you would do and if it is then I understand. I will have to wait to know the true answer when I meet you in Heaven some day soon. You are watching me, I know, making sure that I don’t always think the negative, and that I see my self clearly…how you see me. You cared about everyone else, and wanted everyone to be happy, no matter how bad you felt inside. I’m trying my best not to cry writing this, and I’m not doing a good job at it. You were WAY too nice to me, and I didn’t deserve it most of the time. You forgave me every time I frustrated you, and whenever I said something that I shouldn’t have. That’s who, what, you are, Chase: caring, forgiving, loving, sweet, and charming. You never stopped caring about those you loved, and I am sure you still are as you are up in Heaven watching us. You always put others first, before yourself. You wanted others to be happy, even if you weren’t. The many times you told me to “chill” will always be a reminder, to smile. That’s what you did, Chase, you made people smile…you made me smile. And I told you that a few times.. You still continue to, and then I also cry. Not because of what you did, or anything you said but because you’re gone. You’re in a better place, I know, but it’s still hard not having you here. To make sure I smile, and think positively…about myself. To remember what you see in me is what I need to see.
I feel you here with me in so many ways. In my teddy bear as I hold it close when I am sleeping, trying to keep you out of my dreams as you wanted; in my voice when I am positive, wanting to do as you asked me; and in my heart when I care, doing something that you did so well. You are with me as I walk in the cold winter air, wrapping your strong arms around me, keeping my small body a little bit warmer; you are with me in the classroom whispering that it’s OK, telling me that I’ll do great on whatever I do, that you believe in me, and that I “know everything.” As always you encourage me, you build me up, and you challenge me. I am trying to be strong, healthy, positive, caring, and everything else you were, and told me that I was. I know I don’t know much about you, even though I wish I did, and I don’t understand how it’s possible but I LOVE YOU, CHASE BLAKE ALTMAN! And I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love,
Candi Michelle Hall
“Dotty”
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I am still writing...another one....
DestinyLies
I wasn't sure if I should post this on here, but since everyone was praying for him I wanted to:
Chase,
You told me to “chill out and be happy…that’s how I like you best,” over two months ago…and now I am trying to do what you say but when you’re gone it’s hard. I miss you so much, Chase, and I don’t understand what happened, why you hid your feelings from me, or why God chose to take you. You were, and still are, such a great help to me. You were always there for me, willing and ready to listen, that’s one thing you did best; listen. You would listen to any one, about anything, at any time. Many nights I kept you awake talking, you said it was OK, and I appreciate that so much. You didn’t want me to cry, and I know you wouldn’t want me to now. It’s just hard to believe that you’re gone, I will never talk to you again -until I get to Heaven that is- I will never get that excited feeling when I see your name appear on my phone, or how easy you could tell that I wasn’t OK. The first time that I met you I knew that you were different, unique. You always tried to make me smile, make me feel better about myself, and make sure that I was OK. The few times I frustrated you, I didn’t understand why you didn’t just tell me to leave you alone, and I still don’t sometimes. You always said it was OK, that I wasn’t annoying, and that I didn’t bug you. You always some how made me smile when I was down, because that’s how you are, you want everyone to be happy, everyone to laugh. I keep expecting to talk to you any minute…but then I remember- you’re gone. You’re no longer on this earth, you are in Heaven- free from the pain you never showed was hurting- with your Mom and our Lord. It’s hard thinking that I will no longer talk to you until I get to Heaven, but I know that you’re in a better place, you’re safe, and away from all of the troubles of life. Three times in the period of three months you’re life was threatened: and the third one won. I don’t know why God let us meet, only to take you away, I’m just glad that he did. Even though it was a short period of time, and I wish that it could’ve been longer and better, it is a time that I will always cherish. Every time you went into the hospital I got worried, and a few times cried, because I didn’t want to lose you. One thing that you taught me, in the few months we talked, was patience. Whether it was by waiting for you to get out of class, or work, or for you to text me back…I learned to be patient. I didn’t want to annoy you, but I ended up doing it anyway, so I tried to wait. There are so many things that I want to say, and that I wish I had said (or not said) but I can’t tell them to you anymore, or say I’m sorry. I know that you would forgive me anyway, even if I didn’t deserve it, and listen to me talk only “giving your two cents” as you put it to me once.
You told me one time that you liked talking to me, but why you never said, just like you never told me why you liked me…or what your true feelings were towards me the last month you lived, until now. I don’t understand why you kept it hidden, from not only me but also everyone except Sarah, but I don’t really care I know now. I think that you didn’t want me to hurt more when you left, it’s something you would do and if it is then I understand. I will have to wait to know the true answer when I meet you in Heaven some day soon. You are watching me, I know, making sure that I don’t always think the negative, and that I see my self clearly…how you see me. You cared about everyone else, and wanted everyone to be happy, no matter how bad you felt inside. I’m trying my best not to cry writing this, and I’m not doing a good job at it. You were WAY too nice to me, and I didn’t deserve it most of the time. You forgave me every time I frustrated you, and whenever I said something that I shouldn’t have. That’s who, what, you are, Chase: caring, forgiving, loving, sweet, and charming. You never stopped caring about those you loved, and I am sure you still are as you are up in Heaven watching us. You always put others first, before yourself. You wanted others to be happy, even if you weren’t. The many times you told me to “chill” will always be a reminder, to smile. That’s what you did, Chase, you made people smile…you made me smile. And I told you that a few times.. You still continue to, and then I also cry. Not because of what you did, or anything you said but because you’re gone. You’re in a better place, I know, but it’s still hard not having you here. To make sure I smile, and think positively…about myself. To remember what you see in me is what I need to see.
I feel you here with me in so many ways. In my teddy bear as I hold it close when I am sleeping, trying to keep you out of my dreams as you wanted; in my voice when I am positive, wanting to do as you asked me; and in my heart when I care, doing something that you did so well. You are with me as I walk in the cold winter air, wrapping your strong arms around me, keeping my small body a little bit warmer; you are with me in the classroom whispering that it’s OK, telling me that I’ll do great on whatever I do, that you believe in me, and that I “know everything.” As always you encourage me, you build me up, and you challenge me. I am trying to be strong, healthy, positive, caring, and everything else you were, and told me that I was. I know I don’t know much about you, even though I wish I did, and I don’t understand how it’s possible but I LOVE YOU, CHASE BLAKE ALTMAN! And I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love,
Candi Michelle Hall
“Dotty”
.
I am still writing...another one....
DestinyLies
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Awwww thanks...yes he meant a lot to me.