Something amazing happened to me last night.
At least I thought it was amazing. Maybe it was only amazing because I was feeling semi-emotional, upset and happy at the same time. I was up in my room, putting up my two new My Chemical Romance posters, wearing my new Beatles t-shirt and white sneakers, Gloria Vanderbelt skinny jeans and my new little black hoop earrings. I was pretty fed up because 1, Hot Topic, my number 1 place for MCR merchandise, had absolutely NO MORE MCR shirts. At all. I could always count on them for MCR shirts but I guess they weren't selling very well. 2, I found SEVERAL Jonas Brothers shirts in various places, except the so called "Extra Large" might have fit a sapling tree. 3, I couldn't find the Jonas Brothers cd I wanted. I was angry but still happy because there was a sale on posters at Fye so I was able to purchase two new MCR posters, rolling up my old beaten up one and putting it into storage to make space on my walls. We had also purchased "My Fair Lady" which I had been DYING to see.
Anyway as soon as I was done accidentally cutting the skin beneath my newly short nails with the tacks and succeeded to put up my posters, I flopped on my bed and popped in my MCR Black Parade cd. It had been ignored for a loooooooooong time so I decided to get some use out of it. I clicked ahead to "Dead!", the song that inspired the start of my story "The Lost Paraders" and the first few notes shot me with a sort of nostalgia, remembering how crazy my obsession with them became. The second few shot me with realization that I still liked their music as much as before, though not as obsessed like. Third I was shot with relief. I was scared I was growing out of them. I thought now that I liked the Jonas Brothers that I would end up leaving MCR in the dust after all their music has done for me.
MCR has opened my eyes as much as the Jonas Brothers have. The Jonas Brothers and Twilight were just the extra knocks on the head to finish the lesson. (the lesson was to never judge someone/something before you know/experience them for yourself because MCR, JB and Twilight are all things I despised before I knew anything much about them and then I decided I liked them)
I was really happy when I realized MCR still held their place in my heart. I'm not the scary obsessive fangirl I used to be. I still think some of the members of MCR are attractive, but I don't get upset that they're married. Now I'm actually really glad they're happy. I think I went crazy because I started laughing. It doesn't seem so amazing now, it actually seems crazy. But last night, it was magical. I don't know. Maybe I was just really tired. But it seemed great because MCR's music still made me feel happy.
I'd been scared for awhile that JB woukd replace MCR for me. It feels good to like on if the same groups alot of other girls my age like, but (I KNOW, this is really stupid) in a way I felt like I was abandoning MCR.
Now I know I never lost my interest in their music.
----------That was a really stupid thing to write about and I'll regret it later but I don't care. I'm sure you guys won't make fun of me, will you?
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