"I scarcely dared to let him go outdoors all winter; I was afraid that the water in his gill implants would freeze, and then he'd suffocate. For his birthday, some of the young people from church went to elaborate lengths to enable him to be outdoors: they walked close to him, not only helping him stand upright, but carrying firepots full of live coals, and _fanning_ the warm air from these directly at both sides of his neck, so the water _couldn't_ freeze. Of course, they also had to bring some extra water along, in case their fanning might _evaporate_ his gill water. Now, at last, the weather's nice... but now, Miguel is too weak to get much enjoyment of it."
Tilly De Soto clearly had plenty of stress to vent; but in doing so, she was not about to let the visiting Marine Corps veteran infer that she _resented_ having to take care of an ailing husband for so long. "So far, the implants have bought Miguel another eight months or so of life that he wouldn't have had otherwise. But the Adenoid-Cystic Carcinoma hasn't quit. It can't asphyxiate him, but now it's compressing his stomach. See that soup he's drinking? It's a _banquet_ for him these days. The poor darling hasn't got stomach space left to _digest_ very much solid food at one time; so even with not burning up many calories, he has to take very small meals six or seven times a day. But thank God, we do have help." She gestured toward her kitchen, where at this moment two girl volunteers from Pastor Zondei's congregation were doing whatever jobs needed doing. "With my helpers here daily, I can have time to BE WITH my dashing Cuban lover; and I can tell you, if you have true love, it shines _brighter_ under the shadow of death." Tears were trying to leak out of her eyes, but she went on speaking.
"I wouldn't trade these extra months with Miguel for anything. We've imagined all the places we would go if we could-- imagined them so vividly, that it's almost as if we HAD gotten outside the fence and done all the things we thought of. And in real life, even when confined to writing notes, Miguel's been able to coach so many of the young folks in writing and journalism-- in _real_ journalism, just in case that is ever given a chance to exist again."
During his wife's narrative, Miguel had contrived to write a note, which he now passed to Brendan. It read: Not one man in a thousand ever gets the privilege of being loved by such a brave, true-hearted woman as God has given me. Reading this, thinking of how his own father had never appreciated his mother the way Miguel appreciated Tilly, Brendan was near to weeping himself.
Showing Miguel's note to Tilly, he remarked, "The love between you two not _only_ will be honored by God in Heaven; I'll see to it that _mortals_ know about it. Your story is a model of something most of the world has lost."
Reuben Torvill, in common with most conscientious physicians, had seen enough of suffering, death and grief, that no single instance could overwhelm him emotionally. He cared as genuinely as anyone could ask him to, but he cared with a certain necessary detachment. The last time he had come close to weeping for a patient was when he had first had to tell Miguel about the cancer diagnosis. It was Reuben who now interrupted the sorrowful mood. "Miguel, Tilly: I know that you know what a cruel agony it is to feel hope, and then have it yanked away. But if you two can _allow_ yourselves to indulge a new hope.... I believe there IS a new chance for you. That is the _real_ reason why I arranged for Mr. Hyland to visit you. Brendan?"
Brendan knew that the De Sotos had been told at least part of what was going on with Professor Siermaala's new advanced-analog ultrasound scanner; but he had not dared to be himself the one who would offer a tantalizing hope that might only be dashed. Now, he had permission to speak.
"Mr. and Mrs. De Soto, you know that, not counting the taxane chemotherapy which his body couldn't endure, there are three ways in which Mr. De Soto's cancer could be effectively treated, if only D.S. authorities would _allow_ it to be treated. His own stem cells could be modified to combat the cancer; nanobots could be injected that would perform a similar function; or narrow-beam sound waves could be shot into his body, each single beam too faint to damage his tissues, but with two or three beams _intersecting_ to apply greater force in one place at a time, destroying cancer cells a few at a time.
"May Our Lady intercede for you in this, that I'm not offering a false hope; but Matti Siermaala's ultrasound arrays _are_ capable of generating those intersecting lines of sonic vibration. While admittedly not changing the biochemical conditions which created the carcinoma in the first place, they _could_ destroy so many cancer cells as to push the disease back substantially. We could possibly turn the clock back to when only a few of your glands were affected..."
"Which is good, for sure," Tilly interrupted, "but the damage and atrophy of his various tissues and organs would still be there."
"True; but in the reprieve gained by the sonic treatment, modern regeneration techniques could in some degree restore normal tissue."
"If regeneration _would_ be authorized by the rulers," Doctor Torvill put in. "Last year, to obtain _even_ so much as the gill implants for Miguel, we had to have support from influential foreigners; one of those, in fact, was that Chinese gentleman Yang who's in the Enclave again. Can Professor Siermaala exert any benign influence?"
"I believe he can, Doctor, since the Trevette administration is interested in his invention. The use of the scanner doesn't consume terrible amounts of power..."
During this, Miguel had been writing another note. Now he gave it to Brendan.
I believe God sent you. Have Tilly tell you sometime about flashlights in the dark. Even if you're NOT able to get this new help for me, I want you to have something I've worked on for years: my memoirs. You can get them outside, make them count for something.
Had Miguel known it, Brendan had already suspected that the veteran editor-publisher might have written an autobiography. Everyone of high rank in the secret army knew and admired the way Miguel De Soto had fought his uphill fight against the lying demagoguery of the Fairness Party. And yes, the record of that fight for truth could inspire millions of new souls to rejoin the war against tyranny.
Brendan looked from the note to its writer, saying only, "Yes, Mister De Soto, I will be _honored_ to do as you ask."