Now Cecilia spoke--in Tagalog, which Melody and Harmony didn't understand. "Chilena, if you think Al's gone too far overboard in his fascination, put some of the blame on me. In fact, put MOST of the blame on me. All the time YOU were being allowed some dating with precautions, Al wasn't being allowed any. I held him back because I was afraid of his 'weirdness.' Or that's what I told myself. But what I was really afraid of was his male nature itself. It's something the Lord has had to deal with me about, and I still don't know how to ask your brother's forgiveness."
"Al doesn't think of you as having wronged him, sweetheart," Eric Havens insisted.
Cecilia clung to her husband for a moment, then turned toward Chilena again. "But I did wrong your brother. I had had you for years already before we adopted Al, and even Melody for awhile before him. I was comfortable raising girls...and something in me wanted Al to be a girl too. When he insisted on being a boy, that caused my mind to inflate all his problems--not that he didn't have real problems."
Eric put in a word again: "True, sweetheart; we really DIDN'T want Al breaking some other boy's arm or neck in a fight over a girl. After his years of slum survival, there WAS a certain hair-trigger temper in him."
"But I could have allowed him SOME kind of--well, I can't change the past." Chilena could see that her Mom was almost in tears. "But God may be giving me a chance to make it up to your brother, Chilena--by ENCOURAGING his feelings for Kim. I think I see God's hand in the way Mrs. Tisdale is encouraging him too. I'm hoping for good things from the Assateague Island excursion nest weekend."
Eric now touched his eldest daughter's cheek. "Honey, the way you looked when you said--are you feeling as if AL doesn't love YOU as much as he did? If so, I don't think you have anything to worry about. In all ways other than the specifically romantic, Alipang loves you more than he loves any other mortal creature on Earth."